LEARN IT ..

YESSSS MISS PUSSY CAT THE LATEX BALL WAS T0DAY & THE NIGHT WAS FILLED WITH SCANDALS, STRETCH, PERF0RMANCES, & SHADE. THE LATEX BALL IS THE M0ST PUBLICIZED BALL & THE FIRST BALL I EVER ATTENDED. T0 SEE THE SHIT I HAVE BEEN GAGGING 0VER 0N Y0UTUBE F0R MY ENTIRE HIGH SCH00L CAREER IN THE FLESH MADE MY ANTICIPATI0N T0 ATTEND THE BALL THAT MUCH M0RE STRESSFUL. WE LEFT LATE & CUT THE LINE LIKE THE HIGH CLASS CUNTS WE ARE. LUCKILY NASTY HAD 0UR PASSES READY & WE PUMPED RIGHT 0N THR0UGH.



MY FIRST BALL EXPERIENCE WAS KE & AN 0UNCE BECAUSE ALL THE SHIT PE0PLE HAVE T0LD ME AB0UT A BALL WERE TRUE. THE SHADE, P0LITICS, EXCITEMENT, & DRAWN OUT UN0RGANIZED EVENTS WERE SIMPLY HILARI0USN & APPARENT. CUNTS, CELEBUTAUNTS, KE KES, T0P M0DELS, ENTERAINERS, DRAGS, & TRADE CAME THE FUCK THR0UGH IN THEIR SUMMERS BEST L00KING SHARPER THEN TACKS. LIKE A CRAFTY CUNT I SNUCK INT0 VIP & ENJ0YED MY C0MPLIMENTARY RED BULL, C0ND0MS, & LUBE AS I WATCHED THE LATE VIRGINS GARBED IN THEIR ALL WHITE APPAREL GET CH0PPED. G0ING T0 A BALL HAS MADE MY LITTLE H0BBY 0F C0MMENTATING SEEM LIKE A FUCKING PAST TIME I SH0ULD REALLY L00K INT0. PRAY I D0NT GET CH0PPED AT MY FIRST KE KE EVENT.

I BRUSHED SH0ULDERS WITH THE LIKES 0F DANNI NINJA, J0NTE, D-W00DS, TEYANNA TAYL0R, & RAM0NE. I C0ULDNT HELP BUT GAG AS I CHATTED IT UP WITH DESHAUN EVISU & TIA J0URDAN-ZI0N, WH0 G0 THE FUCK 0FF. I SAW S0 MANY FAMILIAR FACES FR0M VIDE0S I HAVE WATCHED RELIGI0USLY LIKE DAESHA LAPERLA, JACK MIZRAHI, K0L-AID, P0NY J0URDAN-ZI0N, MALECHI, GINA G0SPEL, HECTAR EXTRAVAGANZA, ANDRE MIZRAHI, LUNA, KEVIN AVIANCE, KASS EB0NY, HERSHEY EB0NY, ISIS TSUNAMI,TIM TIM, GISELLE, & MANY MANY M0RE BALLR00M CHILDREN I CANT REMEMBER RIGHT N0W.








THIS WAS DEF THE EVENT 0F A P0PPING BEY0ND P0PPING SUMMER WHICH IS C0MING T0 A PICTURE PERFECT ENDING. IF Y0U CANT TAKE ME SIT THE FUCK D0WN !!! SERVE HA !!!

S0L-ANGEL

IF Y0U HAVE EARS Y0U HAVE RECENTLY BEEN DR0WNDED IN THE NEW BITCH 0N THE BL0CK KN0WN AS S0LANGE KN0WLES. WHETHER Y0U LIVE F0R HER V0CALS, WARDR0BE, 0R JUST HER CUNT ENERGY Y0U CANN0T DENY THAT SHE IS W0RKING THE GAME RIGHT AB0UT N0W. SHE IS PR0VING THAT S0ME 0F US ARE DESTINED F0R M0RE THEN JUST 15 MINUTES 0F FAME (EVEN WHEN 0UR 0LDER SISTER IS A TIPPING/PERF0RMING LEGEND)

H0NESTLY, I WAS N0T A FAN 0F HERS WITH HER FIRST ALBUM. THE B0H0 ETHNIC L00K WAS S0 LATE T0 ME & THE LYRICS JUST DIDNT D0 IT, N0 SHADE. N0W I THINK THAT SHE HAS C0ME INT0 HERSELF AS AN ARTIST & AN INDIVIDUAL. THR0UGH THE UPS & D0WN 0F THE INDUSTRY THIS BITCH IS HERE T0 STAY S0 I HAD T0 WATCH HER RIP AT THE J&R MUSIC FESTIVAL.





THE C0ST WAS FREE S0 I HAD T0 PUMP THE FUCK THR0UGH. MICHELLE WILLIAMS & TERRENCE H0WARD ALS0 PERF0RMED BUT I WASNT REALLY INT0 THEIR ACTS, N0 SHADE THATS JUST N0T MY CUP 0F TEA. I MEET S0LANGE AT THE J&R ST0RE F0R HER PRE ALBUM SIGNING & SHE WAS JUST A REAL PERS0N. SHE WAS NICE, HUMBLE, PH0T0GENIC, & FER0SH S0 I LIVE F0R HER.



BEY & TINA KN0WLES CAME T0 SUPP0RT. BEY L00KED CUTE FR0M THE PICS I SAW 0N THE NET. THE M0RALE 0F THE ST0RY IS PICK UP S0L-ANGEL & THE HADLEY STREET DREAM DR0PPING 8/26/08. HERE ARE S0ME VIDS, GET ALL THE WAY IN.

EXCUSE ME ?

SUMMER TIME IS ENDING IN AN EM0TI0NAL, MESSY, & C0NFUSING PILE 0F SHIT. I BLAME MY CURRENT FUCKED UP SITUAT0N S0ULY 0N THE FACT THAT I SAID FUCK MY SUMMER READING & NEVER PICKED UP MY B00KS. IF I HAD TH0SE TW0 THICK ASS B00KS T0 READ I W0ULDNT HAVE HAD S0 MUCH TIME 0N MY HANDS T0 MAKE A MESS 0F MY LIFE. I ALS0 BLAME THE FACT THAT I LET ALL TH0SE 90'S CLUB JAMS C0NVINCE ME THAT THE P0WER 0F L0VE WAS STILL AR0UND.



"F0R S0ME 0NE S0 Y0UNG Y0U SURE ARE DEPRESSED AL0T.." --WEST

WHAT THE FUCK CAN I SAY T0 THAT? BESIDES EXCUSE ME?

MY L0VE LIFE IS THE FUCKING TWILIGHT LIGHT Z0NE. Y0U KN0W H0W AWKWARD IT IS WHEN Y0UR L0VE INTEREST TELLS Y0U ITS 0KAY T0 DATE 0THER PE0PLE CAUSE THEY ARE N0T G0ING ANYWHERE. WHAT!? I GET IT, WE'RE FRIENDS. WE L0VE EACH 0THER. WE'VE DID SHIT. IT G0T T0 REAL. IF ITS MEANT T0 BE IT WILL BE. TIME WILL TELL, & ALL THAT 0THER CLICHE BULL SHIT BUT IM N0T LIVING F0R T0M0RR0W. WHY THE FUCK SH0ULD I WHEN IM LIVING T0DAY , EXCUSE ME?

UGHHH !!!! AM I REALLY G0NNA MESS WITH S0ME 0NE WH0 IS S0 N0T EVEN MY TYPE JUST CAUSE I KN0W I WILL BE APPRECIATED & ACTUALLY GET A CHANCE T0 G0 0N DATES, CHILL, & HAVE S0ME 0NE BE THERE C0NSTANTLY, F0R ME, EXCUSE ME?

THIS HAS BEEN SUCH A BITTER SWEET SUMMER. I HAVE LIVED M0RE IN THIS LAST TW0 M0NTHS THEN MY ENTIRE LIFE. I HAVE L0VED. I HAVE L0ST. I HAVE BR0KEN RULES. I HAVE PUMPED THE CHILLY STREETS 0F S0H0 & TASTED THE NIGHT AIR 0F THE VILLAGE. I HAVE FLIRTED & BEEN FLIRTED WITH. I HAVE KISSED PE0PLE WH0 L0VE ME. M0NEY, DRINKS, & SEX. UPS & D0WNS. FREE C0NCERTS & PUKING. WEIGHT L0SS & HEAD ACHES. SLEEP 0VERS & LAUGHS. THE LAUGHS .. THE LAUGHS .. THE LAUGHS. C0ULD Y0U BLAME ME F0R WISHING THAT LIFE C0ULD JUST FREEZE FRAME & LET ME BE .. SIMPLY HAPPY IN THIS C0NFUSING, DRAINING, MESSY M0MENT IN MY LIFE THAT IS SUMMER TIME?

HATED IT !!!

"I G0T THREE W0RDS T0 DESCRIBE Y0UR EFFECT FAB-U-L0US"



H0NEY Y0U WANNA TALK AB0UT A KEKE, JUST WATCH THE MEDIA'S TAKES 0N GAY MEN & GET Y0UR LAUGHS. A GAY MALE 0N TELEVISI0N FITS INT0 THREE CATEG0RIES, INTERNATI0NAL FASHI0NISTA, GURRRLFRIEND, & MY FAV0RITE D0WN L0W BR0THER. IT MAKES ME W0NDER, ARE THESE THE 0NLY CATEG0RIES I HAVE T0 CH00SE FR0M? IF IM N0T A FINGER SNAPPING, CUT THR0AT, CUNT DIVA D0ES THAT MAKE ME ANY LESS GAY THEN THE NEXT QUEEN?

WITH ALL THE CHARACTERS THAT PRANCE AR0UND 0N WEST F0URTH Y0U CANT BLAME THE W0RLD F0R HAVING SUCH AN 0VER THE T0P EXAGGERATED PICTURE 0F WHAT THE AVERAGE GAY MALE L00KS & ACTS LIKE. H0WEVER, NEVER LET Y0UR ENC0UNTER WITH A FEW SET Y0UR 0PINI0N 0N THE MANY. GAY PE0PLE ARE A LARGE GR0UP 0F PE0PLE THAT C0ME IN ALL SHADES, SIZES, & PERS0NALITIES. S0ME C0ME CUNTIER THAN 0THERS. S0ME PE0PLE WH0 IDENTIFY AS H0M0SEXUAL D0NT EVEN FIT INT0 THE SET FRAME 0F WHAT THE STERE0TYPICAL GAY MALE EMB0DIES. L00KS CAN BE DECEIVING & F0LL0WING STERE0TYPES USUALLY LEADS PE0PLE T0 L00KING LIKE AN ASS. D0NT BE AN0THER ASS, THE W0RLD HAS EN0UGH ALREADY.

LATER DAYS,
URBAN FILTH
"2 SNAPS .."

WH0, AM I ?

THIS SUMMER HAS BEEN THE BIGGEST EXAGGERATI0N 0F MY LIFE. WITH THE SCANDALS, CRUSHES, HELL0S & G00DBYES, DRINKING, SHADE, & THE SEX I CANT SAY WH0 THE FUCK I AM ANYM0RE. I FIND THAT I AM C0NSTANTLY MAKING MYSELF FEEL A CERTAIN WAY BECAUSE I KN0W THATS H0W I SH0ULD HAVE FELT AT THE TIME; THATS H0W I W0ULD HAVE FELT AT THE TIME & THAT SCARES ME. ME; THE B0Y WH0 KNEW HIMSELF INSIDE & 0UT WHILE HIS PEERS WERE M0RE C0NCERNED WITH C0L0RING INSIDE THE LINES 0F THEIR C0L0RING B00K. THIS SUMMER HAS BEEN S0 BITTER SWEET.





MAYBE IM JUST SCARED 0F GR0WING? IM SCARED THAT IM N0T SCARED 0F THE SHIT THAT FREAKED ME THE FUCK 0UT 3 M0NTHS AG0. LIKE MAKING NEW FRIENDS, L0VE, & THE FUTURE. I HAVE HAD PE0PLE C0ME IN & 0UT 0F MY LIFE & MY CIRCLE IS L0CKED IN, F0REVER. L0VE? WHATS L0VE G0T T0 D0 WITH IT? WH0 NEEDS A HEART WHEN A HEART CAN BE BR0KEN? I D0NT NEED L0VE. H0W CAN I? IM T0 BUSY TRYING T0 MAKE A HIGH FASHI0N DREAM 0UT 5 D0LLARS & 0RIGINALITY. THE FUTURE? FUCK THE FUTURE! IM LIVING F0R T0DAY. SEE H0W "NEW" I AM. THE SHIT IS SCARY ..

VINYL OPULENCE

ITS IT ALL OVER MY FACE .. HELL YEAH !!!

GRENADINE & WATER

"IF YALL BEEN MESSING AR0UND F0R THIS L0NG & YALL STILL D0NT G0 0UT IT AINT NEVER G0NNA HAPPEN." -- DAVID THE JEW

MY HEAD HURTS FR0M DRINKING T0 MUCH ALCH0L & CHASING GRENADINE WITH WATER. IM S0 EMM0TI0NALLY EMPTY, DRAINED. UGH, GET Y0UR LIFE T0GETHER.



"NEVER MAKE S0ME 0NE Y0UR WH0LE W0RLD, CAUSE IF THEY LEAVE .. WHAT ARE Y0U G0NNA HAVE LEFT?" -- DAVID THE JEW

LAYING 0N DAVIDS C0UCH IN BR00KLYN G0T ME FEELING ALL TYPES 0F 0VERP0WERED. I'M S0 FAR FR0M H0ME .. S0 FAR FR0M ME. I HAVEN'T BEEN "MYSELF" T0NIGHT BUT I FELT C0NTENT, SATISFIED, HAPPY. I JUST WISH Y0U MADE ME FEEL LIKE THIS & N0T A C0UCH. CAUSE EVEN TH0UGH I WISH Y0U DID Y0U D0NT. AN0THER WATER & GRENADINE 0N THE R0CKS T0 MAKE MY HEART ST0P.

HEAD GAMES

S0 MY NEW LIFE M0T0 IS "SHAKE THE DICE & STEAL THE RICE!" D0NT ASK ME WHAT THE FUCK IT MEANS TH0UGH. I HAVENT P0STED UP SHIT IN A MINUTE S0 I DECIDED T0 FREE WRITE T0 GET MY MIND TIGHT. T0DAY I PLAYED "I NEVER" WITH S0ME FRIENDS 0F MINE & S0ME LAMES FR0M MY SCH00L. LAMES CAUSE I D0NT HANG WITH THEM. I D0NT HANG AR0UND PE0PLE MY AGE, THEY B0RE ME. M0ST 0F MY FRIENDS GRADUATED HIGH SCH00L ALREADY, 19 & 20 YEAR 0LDS. I AM MAD TIGHT WITH MY CLASSMATE AAR0N'S 0LDER SISTER NASTY. S0 WHEN I CHILL WITH HER IN HER CRIB; HE BE THERE. IT D0NT GET WEIRD UNTIL HE HANG WITH HIS FRIENDS & I REC0GNIZE THEM FR0M SCH00L & ITS LIKE "YEAAAAAAA .. HI" REAL AWKWARD LIKE. S0 ANYWAY AAR0NS FRIENDS WERE ALL GAGGING WHEN I DRANK AFTER S0ME 0NE SAID, "I NEVER GAVE HEAD BEF0RE." I WAS LIKE "UGH THIS IS EXACTLY WHY EACH & EVERY 0NE 0F Y0U WILL REMAIN A LAME IN MY B00K" LEARN ME BITCH & LEARN ME WELL. GIVING HEAD CAN BE S0 DRAINING & DEMEANING AT TIMES. WHAT ELSE D0 I HAVE T0 SAY ... ... ..

DIRTY LAUNDRY

Y0U MIGHT BE FAMILIAR WITH DAE DAE FR0M AN EARLIER P0ST. HE IS A VERY CUTE FRIEND 0F MINE THAT I MEET 0N MYSPACE. WE CHATTED F0R A BIT THEN I L0ST C0NTACT BUT WE LINKED UP AT THE PIER IN THE VILL DURING PRIDE. AN ACCIDENT THAT I D0NT REGRET. WE HAVE CHILLED AB0UT THREE TIMES SINCE THEN. HIS BEST FRIENDS Y0 Y0 IS MY H0ME GURRRRL AS WELL & WHEN WE THREE GET T0GETHER IT JUST FEELS RIGHT.

N0W THE MEANING 0F THIS P0ST. LIKE ANY 0THER CUNT DAE DAE & I HAVE 0UR L0ADS 0F DIRTY LAUNDRY. I FIND THAT ALL PE0PLE HAVE DIRTY LAUNDRY. H0WEVER, A STRAIGHT MAN MIGHT HAVE A DIRTY SHIRT, THREE PAIRS 0F B0XERS, & S0ME S0CKS IN THEIRS IN C0MPARIS0N T0 A GAY MAN WH0 WILL HAVE L0ADS UP0N L0ADS 0F DIRTY LAUNDRY. DAE & I HAVE DISCUSSED 0UR SHADY PAST BUT N0T IN T0 MUCH DETAIL BEF0RE BUT T0DAY WAS THE DAY THE TEA WAS REALLY SPILT.

WE SHARED 0UR DEEPEST SECRETS T0 0NE AN0THER AND I FELT KIND 0F NAKED. I JUST FELT LIKE IT WAS WAY T0 EARLY F0R HIM T0 KN0W THAT DARK SIDE 0F ME 0R F0R ME T0 KN0W THAT SIDE 0F HIM. DID HIS FEELING CHANGE AB0UT ME? HAD MY FEELINGS? S0 H0W D0 Y0U KN0W WHEN ITS THE RIGHT TIME T0 REALLY RIP 0PEN Y0UR CHEST & SHARE Y0U HEART WITH S0ME0NE? FLAWS & ALL ..

THE FAME

GET INT0 THIS MINI M0VIE SH0WCASING THE SICKNESS THAT IS LADY GAGA. HER FIRST SINGLE FR0M HER ALBUM "JUST DANCE" IS RIPPING UP THE CHARTS & SHE QUICKLY BECAME MY SEC0ND FAV0RITE NEW ARTIST (C0MING SEC0ND T0 JANELLE M0NAE)THE ZIGGY STARDUST TRASH GLAM0UR INFLUENCES ARE BLEEDING FR0M EVERY TRACK AND I CANN0T WAIT T0 HEAR M0RE S0NGS FR0M "THE FAME." IT HITS ST0RES 10/7/08 & IS A DEF PICK UP.

STREET DREAMERS

S0 I ARRIVED IN THE VILLAGE AR0UND 12AM ISH T0 MEET UP WIT DAE DAE & Y0 Y0, S0ME FRIENDS FR0M AR0UND THE WAY. I LEFT TUB & JAZZ 0N THE CHILLY "A" TRAIN AS THEY MADE THEIR WAY T0 A LUSH L0FT PARTY IN BR00KLYN. I WASNT FEELING UP EN0UGH F0R IT. S0 0FF I PUMPED INT0 THE SHADY VILL AL0NE. AFTER MEETING UP WITH Y0 Y0 (WH0 HAD BEEN "AB0ND0NED" AT MCD0NALDS) WE WALKED T0 THE PIER & CHATTED.

TRAVELING T0 NYC 0FTEN, Y0U JUST BEC0ME ACCUST0MED T0 MEETING PE0PLE & THE VILL IS INFAM0USE F0R ALL THE TYPES 0F STREET PUMPERS & FEM QUEENS Y0U'RE B0UND T0 RUN INT0. TH0UGH WE TALKED T0 MANY T0URISTS, DRUNKS, BUMS, PERVES, FIENDS, & UPPER EAST SIDERS DURING THE WEE H0URS 0F THE M0RNING THE M0ST MEM0RABLE W0ULD HAVE T0 BE THE 0BVI0USLY DRUNK SELFISH CHANEL. YESSS GET INT0 THE H0USE NAME, CHANNNEL !!! AFTER ASKING F0R 50 CENT F0R HIS TRAIN FAIR SELFISH T0LD US AB0UT A SICK BL0CK PARTY IN BEDSTYE & THE G00D 0LD DAYS WHEN CUNTS WERE ABLE T0 DRIVE D0WN T0 THE PIER & GET THEIR FEET WET & A BL0WJ0B.

SELFISH REMINDED ME 0F ALL TH0SE 0LDER GAY MEN IN THE BALLR00M SCENE THAT I WATCHED IN "PARIS IS BURNING"; A SICK D0CUMNTARY 0N THE SCENE DURING THE 80'S.



SELFISH WALKS F0R LABELS. L00KING AT HIS 0VERSIZED TEE & PINK FRAMES I QUICLY GLANCED AT DAE WH0 SHARED THE SAME L00K 0F DISBELIEF. "0H, & I USED T0 WALK F0R FACE BEF0RE I L0ST MY TEETH AFTER I G0T HIT BY A TRAIN." EXPLAINED SELFISH. HE EYED DAE & ME, "Y0U ARE S0ME HANDS0ME B0YS! YESSSS B0TH HAVE FACE. H0W 0LD? 0H WAIT TILL Y0U MATURE Y0U HAVEN'T EVEN C0ME INT0 Y0UR REAL FACE." I WAS S0 AMUSED WHILE DAE HAD GR0WN B0RED 0F SELFISH'S TALES & ANTICS. AFTER SH0WING 0FF HIS C0MMENTATING SKILLS & HIS P0CKET VIBRAT0R WE SAID 0UR G00D BYES & SELFISH WAS G0NE.

FAST F0RWARD 4 H0URS. Y0 Y0 & DAE DAE HAD SAID THEIR G00D BYES & I WAS AL0NE 0NCE AGAIN T0 FEND F0R MYSELF. I HAD T0 WAIT AB0UT 40 MINS 0R S0 F0R JAZZ, TUB, & WEST T0 MAKE THEIR WAY FR0M TH PARTY BACK UPT0WN T0 MY L0CATI0N IN THE VILL. AFTR WE MEET UP I ATE AGAIN AND WE CHATTED WHILE WATCHING THE SUN RISE. IT WAS N0W 6AM. I HAD N0T CL0SED MY EYES SINCE 4PM THE PREVI0USE DAY BUT I WAS N0T TIRED. WE STR0LLED T0 S0H0 T0 L00K AT ALL THE NICE WIND0WS 0F THE DESIGNER SH0PS AR0UND US. WE MADE 0UR WAY BACK T0 NJ AR0UND 7AM ISH.







G0T H0ME AR0UND 8AM ISH. 0N THE WAY WEST HAD REMINDED US THAT JANELLE M0NAE WAS PERF0RMING AT SUMMER STAGE. DAMN! THAT MEANT WE HAD T0 G0 H0ME WASH UP & LEAVE T0 G0 RIGHT BACK T0 THE CITY T0 SECURE S0ME SP0TS 0N LINE (THE C0NCERT WAS FREE) AFTER TEMPTING JAZZ T0 G0 WITH S0ME MCGRIDDLES WE WERE 0FF.

I SLEPT THREW M0ST 0F THE C0NCERT S0 D0NT ASK ME AB0UT ANY 0THER ACT BESIDES JANELLE M0NAE'S. AT LEAST WE WERE DIRECTLY INFR0NT 0F THE STAGE & BR0UGHT A BLANKET T0 CHILL 0N. JANELLE RIPPED IT AS USUAL. I C0ULDNT REALLY GET FULLY INT0 IT TH0UGH CAUSE I WAS STILL TIRED. I DID WAKE UP AFTER SHE DIVED INT0 THE AUDIENCE, FELL T0 THE GR0UND, G0T UP, DANCED, & FINALLY; SAW MY SH0ES 0N THE FL00R & THREW THEM INT0 THE AIR. I GAGGED. LUCKLY A SUMMER STAGE INTERN GAVE THEM BACK.



Y0U CAN DEF SEE S0ME 0NE GRAB MY SH0E FR0M THE AIR AT AB0UT 37 SEC0NDS. 0N THE WAY H0ME MY S0LE WAS FUCKING KILLING ME FR0M R0CKING B0ATING SH0ES WITH N0 SUPP0RT & I THREW UP. BEST SUMMER DAYS 0F MY LIFE.

A SCANDAL 0R TW0

MY LIFE IS AN 0N G0ING SCANDAL GGUUURRRLLLL. I JUST CANT TAKE IT. LIKE EVERY TIME I TURN AR0UND ITS A NEW SCANDAL. I CANN0T DEAL WITH THE STRESS AT TIMES BUT WHATEVER BETCH, GIMME M0RE.

FUCK PETA